by Emily Freeman
Today I finally finished the laundry, dusted around the fireplace, went through the stack of papers that have been piling up for months and I thought to myself, There was so much good wrapped up in those endless days of celebration…but there was also so much of the unexpected. It left me a little off balance.
And that imbalance has haunted me this past few weeks, following me around, dragging at my enthusiasm for greeting each day. I will be honest, it worried me a little until I remembered a favorite quote, from a favorite author, of a favorite book. A brilliant woman whose influence molded my life as a young mother, her whispers still carry me through…
She said, "I have this theory that everybody is born with a whole set of 'blocks' in their personalities all different colors and shapes but they each have their own individual set, and it's theirs for a lifetime. Then, as we live, we shape those blocks into a certain pattern, and for a time that pattern is fairly stable. Then something comes along, like adolescence, or graduation, or a mission ––some big change–– and it's as if all of our blocks get knocked down, and we have to build up our 'personhood' again. In a sense, I guess we change, because we usually build a new pattern ––and maybe a new block comes out on top. But we are still building with the same basic blocks. So, in answer to your question, I don't think you've basically changed. I just think someone has knocked down your blocks." (Jaroldeen Edwards)
That is what happened to me this month. You know, somehow just knowing that made me feel better. Because I don't mind building. I love to create. To see something begin to take shape. But this time I am going to do things a little differently.
I am going to turn the process over to the Lord. I'm going to let Him architect the design. I'm going to begin each day with the whisper of a prayer, "Work in me according to thy will." "Perform your good work in me…" I am going to trust Him to design a new pattern. I am going to trust Him. I woke up today to the sun and I knew right away…it was going to be a good day for building.